Today I came across this note that I jotted down two years ago about my main squeeze.
I said daaaawwwwwwhhhhhhhh so hard.
782.reasons why my new boyfriend is da’ bomb (yes I’m that cool)
-He say’s, “You know what you’re right”. “You’ve got a valid argument”. And, “That’s a good point”, more than any other man that I have ever met.
-He laughs so hard that he falls to the floor on a regular basis.
-He writes the most beautiful words to me.
-When he says something highly offensive in my presence he instinctually grabs for my hand because, “I knew I was getting slapped for that one”.
-Everything he cooks is delicious,which might be culinary mastery or maybe just excessive use of butter.
-He throws Ev in the air 15 times in a row, chases her, and drops 20 doll hairs on race car video games.
A few weeks ago I told my best friend that the only reason that I’ve been able to grow spiritually and personally in the past two years is because of the security of my relationship. I sobbed, she soothed, “I believe it”.
But can you imagine, (yes I realize that you may very well be living this life) a world where you have no partner at all or if you do that they’re a total wild card. That there is a person out there with the audacity to call you significant other, hold your hand and in the same breath betray you, deceive you, attack you, steal your humanity. That was my existence for far too many years.
And then like a dandelion the most perfectly paired libation floated into my lap. His name was Julius. He saturated the gaping pours of my existence with patience, flexibility and infectious laughter. He filled me up.
It’s no secret that once your basic needs are met you have the opportunity to create and explore. Please, my dear, do not just sit back and accept that your basic needs are flailing in the wind. You deserve the season of exploration.